Ch-ch-ch-changes

Well I guess it's time to test that vanilla Coke theory of mine. Sarah approached me today after reading my site (I suppose it was naive to believe that she wouldn't at some stage) and asked me if I was really up for this relationship. She read this post. Initially after she spoke to me I thought I must have written something terrible about her... but after rereading the post I don't think it was bad at all. Just the truth really... and more about me than her. But in the end I think that ending the relationship was the best thing. I think I'll be a far better friend than a boyfriend. I guess it was just strange (and difficult) to be involved in a relationship that was predestined to be 'not serious'. It was kind of like I thought I had to hold back the whole time so that things didn't spiral out of control on the 'seriousness' chart.

I hope that things aren't completely wrecked between us at the moment. I know I've hurt her. And in the end it was nothing to do with her at all. It was just me with my attendant amount of crap and history that follows me around.

So if she does read the site again. I'm sorry.

Other news is that Sky has now been installed in my room. Believe it or not but I can't find anything to watch at the moment (but that could just be a product of my mood at the moment). Kerrang! is always good. Plus I can listen to Xfm again too! And by pay-per-view bad porn late at night. *wink*

Ok. I need to play Enter the Matrox now. Brilliant game.