Sorting out my shit

I woke this morning feeling a like a massive burden has been lifted from my mind. The last couple of weeks I've had so much crap running around in my head that I haven't felt like my normal [happy] self. It's been a couple of things really. Financial, personal, career... the whole spectrum. I hate it when smiling becomes something I have to cognitively force onto my face.

The personal stuff sorted itself out over time, which it usually does. A couple of things were annoying me chronically, but I left them to stew and over the last few days they have dissapated. No confrontations involved. It was probably better that way. I was going to say something... Adrian advised me not to... I was still going to... and then I woke up this morning and couldn't be bothered. So that's sorted.

To order my finances I have decided to sell my car. It's not that I'm struggling to meet payments, or that I'm in the red, or anything like that really. When I bought the car I envisaged myself using it all the time, getting around to loads of places that I have't been to before. In reality that never happened. Instead I'm now financing a car, paying insurance, petrol, tax, upkeep... and all for something that I use roughly twice a week (maybe). It would be different if I was commuting to work, or using the car to go out in. But I'm not. So it's just a financial drain pipe right now really. Even catching taxi's where ever I want to go will work out cheaper. So that's my decision - I'm going to keep the car until my mom's upcoming holiday here is over, after which I will flog it to the first dealer that offers me a decent price. I'll have extra expendable cash, and less to worry about.

And that just leaves the career side of things, which I'll be able to focus on far more without the other 2 aspects bothering me all the time. I really do have to start using my degrees for something.