Monday, July 14, 2003

Town and Country Vs Big Smoke

I have come to a new conclusion: I never want to date another girl that I can't just run away from and pretend never existed. I've never felt like this before. I'm (quite proudly) friends with all of my ex's. Ok, I know Janine and I had issues, but they're sorted and we're friends now. And anyways, those issues didn't stem from our direct break up.

Right now though I'm stuck in a situation where everything my ex does comes back up and smacks me in the face, and I just can't avoid it... or her. Serious or not serious relationship, we dated for a few months, there's some attachement there. A month of not having to deal with her conquests would do me some good. Said month is not forthcoming.

I think this problem stems from staying in a town, as opposed to a city. I'm a born and bred city boy, I have never had to deal with issues like this before. Previously when I broke up with a girl we could stay friends. I never got wind of what she was getting up too, and more importantly I never knew who she was getting up to whatever with. Of course alternately it could be a culture difference between Saffers and Brits. Maybe I expect my ex's to respect how I might feel about who they get off with. Maybe Brits just reckon that being a free agent means anyone is game. I don't know. Me, I once had something with a friends ex girlfriend and hated myself for 3 months afterward for it. I felt like I had disrespected his space. Treaded on his toes so to speak.

But like I said - maybe it's just a case of Small Town Syndrome. Chances are, no matter 'who she chooses to have something with' *friendly edit* I'm going to either have worked with them, socialized with them, or at least know them by name. But do I really have to know about it all of the time, fuck it? Can't it just exist outside of my awareness?

This sucks. I can't fucking wait for the sheer anononimity of the city. Bring it on.

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