Something so good

I don't know where to really start this post from. Writing hasn't really been coming to me easily over the last few months and with the way things are at the moment it's still not.

Nat and I are speaking again on a semi-regular basis. For the first time, I guess, we've been able to talk about everything. It hurts like all hell when we do but each time I feel relieved that I've managed to convey some more of what I'm feeling and thinking. My second biggest fear was that she wouldn't ever understand my side. It's hard to explain... I'm not even going to try right now.

Work is alright at the moment... probably the one thing keeping me sane... although hotels are starting to wear a bit thin. I should be able to order my new car in 6 weeks. Currently leading the contenders is the BMW 1-series M Sport. I have a test booked for both that and the 118d Sport on Saturday. It's something nice to look forward to I guess.

Anyways, I'm off. I feel a crushing wave of indecision on the way.