Something so good

I don't know where to really start this post from. Writing hasn't really been coming to me easily over the last few months and with the way things are at the moment it's still not.

Nat and I are speaking again on a semi-regular basis. For the first time, I guess, we've been able to talk about everything. It hurts like all hell when we do but each time I feel relieved that I've managed to convey some more of what I'm feeling and thinking. My second biggest fear was that she wouldn't ever understand my side. It's hard to explain... I'm not even going to try right now.

Work is alright at the moment... probably the one thing keeping me sane... although hotels are starting to wear a bit thin. I should be able to order my new car in 6 weeks. Currently leading the contenders is the BMW 1-series M Sport. I have a test booked for both that and the 118d Sport on Saturday. It's something nice to look forward to I guess.

Anyways, I'm off. I feel a crushing wave of indecision on the way.

Out of sync

This weekend has crashed home so hard I can barely handle right now. I guess I've been lucky in that I've been away from home all week, surrounded by other distracting people. I've been swamped in work and activities and left little time to reflect on my life outside of that sphere.

Getting home on Friday and being alone was difficult to deal with. Far too much time to think really. Nothing on TV. Internet acting up. Felt like the world was conspiring to make me face up to things and deal with them in a far more direct way than I've been up until now.

We've spoken now, which was hard, but felt great. Liberating. Perhaps the first step in a long line of little steps we're going to have to take.

The Arctic Monkeys are helping. In the same way that singer/songwriters wouldn't.

Wa hey! I'm back...

Yeah, apologies for being so scarce lately. Work has been shocking. Life has been hectic. My laptop screen is broken (so this is coming off my work machine). And finally I've actually only spent 1 night at home in the last 3 weeks. All in all I'm pretty knackered.

Anyways, just thought I'd update because I'm stuck in a training workshop which has spiralled completely out of control and I'm slowly dying of boredom. In fact all I've done today is generated about 400 quotes for company cars. Volvo S40 is looking good but so are alot of other cars.

Anyways this is the first time I've blogged in a long time, and like alot of other things, if you have't been doing it regularly for a while it tends not to last for very long.

Catch you all on the flipside.